This is a personal reflective piece of writing that shows the value of long term intentional inner work, specifically using astrology as a framework for life guidance. It’s a truthful account that demonstrates how a specific moon cycle which felt painful to me for many years, has now transformed into a source of clarity and purpose. Here goes.
People who know me well, especially those who have done deeper astrology or moon work with me, will testify that for years, the moon in Capricorn has been a nightmare for me. I’m not exaggerating.
Every month, it was like clockwork: emotional heaviness, spirals, a deep sense of dread I struggled to explain. At times, it felt like a curse that just wouldn’t shift out of my system. I genuinely wondered whether it would ever clear off. The reason I believe it felt so dreadful is that during the Pluto in Capricorn transit between 2008-2024, I experienced excessive, severe complex abuse in multiple ways that dramatically affected my health on every level. The whole thing was charted (like cosmic clockwork) by Pluto’s transits.
I believe that it had such a dreadful lasting negative impact on my energy field that even despite relentless healing, every month it was like my emotions got hauled over the same coals – again, as though life kept on inviting me to peel back even more layers. The depth of the emotional and mental pain I felt was sickening.
But I kept doing the healing because I had faith that it was possible to shift my frequency and to change my life, permanently. And that stuck, heavy, insidious energy – whilst loathsome, dark and toxic – could not be a forever state of being. I just refused to believe it. I was determined to liberate myself.
Month after month, layer by layer, I kept committing to lifting the heaviness by going within and choosing to shift whatever was available to me. Using as many methods that I found worked for me – and of course there are many to choose from. For me it was a combination of Reiki. Somatic healing. Breathwork. Nervous system work. Clearing karmic imprints. Reframing. Choosing again. Movement. Journalling. Reflecting. Talking it over with others. Simplifying my life. And of course, last but not least working intentionally with my energy, my chart, my soul, my thoughts and behaviours, using astrology as my ultimate framework.
And I’m delighted to report that something has shifted.
Today the moon has been in Capricorn, and I’m utterly energised. Cleaned the whole house. Done a tonne of batch cooking. Made grounded business plans mentally and written outlines. I can make plans again logically, strategically. I can…. dare I say…. enjoy Moon transiting through Capricorn?!
I feel clear, capable, and calm. It’s honestly bizarre how different the moon in Capricorn energy now feels to me – but also deeply affirming. Truly, I believe it’s the power of long-term intentional healing and the commitment to never give up on myself, on my growth and long term potential, no matter what it takes. And as I write that, I realise it sounds very Capricorn!
I also believe it’s down to my commitment to work with astrology not as a passive, half assed forecast but as a meaningful reliable framework for deep self-understanding, empowerment, clarity and life changing breakthroughs. I really mean that, and I know that people who work with me experience those benefits too. Often quickly and radically, unlike my own journey with Capricorn energy.
During Pluto’s transit through Capricorn I dealt with many challenging aspects to my natal planets, and it felt like every month was a traumatic, tough reminder, slamming me back down into an old spiral. But it also brought me deep opportunities to heal on a soul level – and now, it’s wonderful to be able to acknowledge that the cycles that used to break me are some of the most productive times of the month.
**Part of why I am sharing this is that without astrology, I might have not noticed that my heavy dips were cosmically related, and perhaps have felt more despair than I did.**
We don’t always see the results of our efforts to dig deep and heal on profound levels straight away. Perhaps sometimes not for many years.
But healing work does pay off and gets so much easier, quicker and more joyful. (Plus – it’s important to acknowledge that we’re not all transforming the same energies on the same levels. We each have our specific burdens to carry and type of journey that we choose to take).
The purpose of this post is to serve as encouragement for the long term – because that’s what I’ve been sitting with today. And I really hope that this message has reached and touched someone who understands what it’s like to feel the heaviness and pain inside as though it just won’t go away. I see you. I feel you. And if you are suffering right now then I’m sorry and send you love. Whilst I can’t promise when those heavy or painful cycles will complete for you, I want you to know that it’s important to keep on committing to your own journey of love, of healing, of returning to your brightest original source self. Because you matter. Your healing matters.
Ever since my awakening, I have believed that it matters that as many people as possible choose their own highest path. It matters that you decide – and choose – and commit to healing yourself and bettering yourself over the long term in whatever way makes sense for you. Even when you don’t see lasting results until years later. Every time you showed up for yourself has always been worth it.
Because one day you may wake up and find that the old patterns and old pain have become old news.
And they can be left firmly in the past.
Thank you for reading this super serious Capricorn style post.
With love
Rachel xx
PS Reach out to me to discuss how to work 1:1 on aspects of your spiritual healing, growth or transformation journey or you’d like clarity to understand how certain cycles are playing out through your chart.